Retail therapy with dear sissy today. 

Gonna have packed weeks coming up soon. 

Oh well~ 

Enjoy this while i can. (:

It seems like things got better yet not exactly at the same time.

All i'm feeling now is confusion, guilt, a tool, tiredness and what else?

I guess at least it's better than before; a mental breakdown.

I'm just both physically and mentally tired of everything. 

God! Help! Save me...

I REALLY HATE HOW THINGS ARE GOING RIGHT NOW!

NO WAIT, DISLIKE!

I CAN'T STAND ALL THESE CRAPPY CHANGES!!

It feels lousy.

A start to a whole new sem after this and everyone's just gonna get busy and stuff.

It's gonna be so hard just to meet up with everyone.

My dear Cement:

Thank you for everything! Since our pre-trip briefing and all.

It's been a month since the start of iDARE. Scary how time passed so quickly.

Cannot show how much I love you guys and how thankful I am to have your in my life.

Although iDARE is officially over, let's please meetup often like how we did over the holidays.

I love you guys.

"Good proportion of water and sand, helps you make good construction materials" ^^

Because I'm just too lazy to cover the whole event, I shall just end off with this photo of me and a damn good bro of mine (:

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Just got back from the airport about an hour+ ago.

3 days at TCP just went by like that, followed by buffet lunch, lunch at makan place with Justice, bringing some mentors to try kallang laksa/ikea, and finally concluding with tears at the airport.

Might not have talked to all the mentors as well as spend a lot of time with them,

but it was all time well spent.

I feel blessed to have gotten to know these talented mentors as well as be inspired by them.

Especially my mentor; Justice.

Held back tears as much as I can but it failed in the end cause my eyes still produced sweat.

In anyway,

Dear Justice,

Thank you for everything since Day 1 that you got to know us from the last camp.

From *creekcreek* moments to laughters and all random things.

Thanks to you, I finally got those bottled up thoughts off my chest. 

Although you might not be able to come back next year so that you can finish college, but do know that we'll be waiting for you to return so that we can give you 3 Justice Clap as well as give you hugs.

Pleeeeeeaseeeeeeeeeee come back soon! We'll be more than glad to spend time with you.

We'll (I'll) miss you sooooo muchhhhhhhhhh!!!

I pray that you'll have a save flight home and that you'll get to come over and see us soon.

Take care of yourself and hope to see you reallllll soon again.

We love you Justice *hearts*

TCP was not one of those typical enrichment camps.

It was a camp which I felt was truly enriching and I learnt a lot as well.

It's like you'll get to learn something out of every activity we did.

Day1:

Albatrose; Guys on chair and have chocs while girls took off our shoes and sat on the floor.

The natural thought would be that it's unfair and stuff but I came to learn that it's all about the perspectives.

We think that "oh why don't we girls have chocolates?"  "Why don't we have chairs?" "Why do we have to take off our shoes?" but when the reasons were revealed, it kind of left me with nothing to say and just go "oh". It made me think about how I have the tendency to jump into conclusions quickly and start passing judgements and complaints but at the end of the day, proven that whatever I perceive may not be right.

Learning more about myself and other people's personality will definitely help in the future.

I'm a high D,I and a slightly high S. Super low C.

I honestly felt abnormal since Justice gave the "this is kind of weird face" when he saw it. 

Hahaha, special me :3

That's beside the point. I think it made me aware of what I can do with my strengths and weaknesses. Also how to relate to those of other types and learning to work/adapt with others.

I really regret not having enough sleep the night before causing me to miss out some parts of Servant Leadership which was really good and the points were really meaningful.

I remember saying that I'll probably have the most problem with integrity because it's not easy to always deliver what you say. Not everything will be able to go smoothly as planned and when a promise is made, it's just so hard sometimes.

And deep humility? I mean who wouldn't like getting acknowledged for what you did?

I know I need the acknowledgement to feel appreciated and stuff so yeahh.

Day 2:

CORE. Made me find out more about what i have and what i lacked.

About me being a camper just because i'm lazy.

"Climbers are committed to climb EVERY aspect of their lives" and i guess that's where i see myself get stuck.

My "reach" is extremely bad cause things that happen often affects my mood a lot and i neglect the fact that it affects the people around me as well. I've no idea why, when my reach is "high" somehow things get more bottled within me and i get tired mentally after awhile. (Need to work on this)

Lunch Unlimited was just good, somehow we enjoyed our meal on the floor with tons of other people just eating bread. But thanks to my dear iDARE family who were at the camp as well, I got to eat good food too. Super got love lah guys. 

C.A.C was simply amazing. Eye opener.

Never would i expect myself doing what we did at the first station. It turned our FUNNNN!

I learnt well, at least i think and hope i did. hahaha~

Second & third station was just hilarious all because of language barriers.

Speaking with our lousy chinese, hokkien and what more malay.

We literally went like: "skolah, ngee ann poly, *show bread*" and she understood surprisingly!!~

Then came the infamous moat. Oh how i dislike it.

Those hours! Those whistling! Oh Lord save me!

Shouting across the room, getting points across which got nowhere and just gave up for that moment.

We completed it in 5h 52min 56s. 

*Phew* Thank God it's over.

Mc delivery with iDARE family and ryan before talking about anything and everything under the roof and ended up crashing there with only 1h of sleep.

Day 3:

I'm so sad it's over and i've not much memory about stuff probably thanks to the lack of sleep.

I was full of nonsense the last day. I blame my lack of sleep, really.

Got to do our Justice Clap! YAY!

Skit was good, Songs were good, Initiation Ceremony etc was good~

the last part where we suddenly started sharing stuff is where things got..

the sweet, candy floss and stuff were just so spicy that our eyes sweated.

But no regrets on this camp at all, i love my group, i love my mentor and i cannot ask for any group/mentor better than this.

I'm gonna miss Justice sooo much when he leaves Singapore. Sighs...